KHRIS MUST DIE!!!! PEW PEW PEW PEW PEW PEW PEW HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE
HI KHRIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :—-D
HAHAHAHA ZOEY IS GOING TO KILL ME, I LOVE YOU ZOEY:)
Just felt like I had to clear up the cobwebs and dust around this old blog. But hardly anyone ever comes here anymore, so I don’t know if updating is actually a good use of my time, which by the way I am running out of. I must stop procrastinating. It’s like masturbating. You enjoy it till you find out you’re only fucking yourself up.
I have been pissy and cranky, and I really must apologize to those I have vented my frustrations upon. Sorry…😦 It’s always like this, that one period of the month when a girl gets a red reminder, she starts becoming a psycho bitch… Uncharacteristically I broke down three times in a day over something I should just let go. Like woah, I should see a therapist lest I become mental. I even yelled and cursed at my mom today. Like EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY DAY she has to tell me to “CLEAN UP YOUR ROOM! AND YOUR WARDROBE!”. It’s MY room, and if I can live with the mess I don’t see why she has to make a fuss about it. So with a streak of rebellion I yelled back “IT’S CLEAN ENOUGH FOR ME!!!” and I slammed the door.
I feel bad. I hate puberty. I hate bleeding from my vagina. Ew.
Well, life sucks. That’s it.
“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are.”
Today’s only Monday and I’m already feeling a bit jaded. I feel so unhealthy and I know it’s because I lack exercise. And I also have been having an insubstantial amount of vitamins daily. I plan to eat fruit and only fruit for the whole of tomorrow, and only that and plain water should be consumed. I’m not doing this because I want to go on a diet. I necessitate this for the sake of my own health and furthermore, this week is going to be busy.
Tomorrow I should be having my first official choir practice, which I foresee would be the breath of fresh air from my arduous timetable tomorrow. I have to run around in school tomorrow, getting my teachers-in-charge for the aforementioned activity I’d be participating in to sign my CCA transfer form. I hope I don’t seem like I’m pestering the teachers.
Above all, I guess I feel rather accomplished when it comes to my school life. I’ve always been rather passive when it comes to things like my CCA and grades. This year is unlike the rest of my secondary school years for I have this surge of tenacity and determination to be at least a B+ student.
Hopefully this self-motivation would abide till next year when I take my O levels and I would be promoted to an A* student. The teachers’ comments would be full of exaltation and cheer, no more shit like “Zoey has the potential to do well, she just needs to be more focused in her studies”.
I’ve been busy recently, and I find myself constantly frowning, oh no here comes wrinkly skin!
1. Stronger batch 2010 broke the triennial record of winning the cheering competition for the Sec 3 camp, sorry seniors, let’s get over it.
2. Starting choir next week! Not sure how I’m supposed to feel about it.
3. I xxxx xxxxx
You know what I just lost all my enthusiasm in blogging. Ugh
Sleeping over at Skye’s crib tonight! A tiny spider’s crawling up my wall. I must MAN UP! I’d be seeing plenty of those at Pahang camp I bet. And I’m falling in love with Lady Gaga all over again.
I love my new friends. Why are you people trying to hinder that? I think you should just let people do what they want and MYOB. But I guess I can’t blame you either. Because I’m not a goody-two-shoes and everyone knows it. But I’m trying to be good albeit with much reluctance. I don’t even know what the fuck for. I don’t know why I’m trying to seek the moral high ground just so you’d approve of a relationship that doesn’t even concern you. Meh, screw this.
Study hard!!!!! I love you!
I know I haven’t done wrong so my conscience is clear. Go think about what you losers said. And feel sorry for yourselves.